How much we can put into one thing to the point that we think the entire world is going to come screeching to a halt if it doesn't work out the way that we want.
In my case, that's a job. A new job at the same place that I'm working now.
I started working a day or two a week in another department.
I started getting a master's degree in the discipline in which I was working a day or two a week in.
I went almost all the way through when they announced a full time position in that department.
I wrote and rewrote my resume probably 25 times in the span of a week.
I applied to the job.
I sent in every piece of paperwork required and I even went so far as to get dual consideration for the job.
I was considered competitively and I was considered as a veteran.
NOw I'm sitting here waiting, and about 3 days ago they announced a list of names from which the CEO can choose for this job.
I'm one of the names.
I've been literally driving myself insane thinking about who they're going to pick, when they're going to pick them and will it be me, will it be someone else. And on and on and on.
Like I said though, its funny how much we can put into one thing. To the detriment and disregard of everything else.
The sun's gonna come up tomorrow. Job or no job.
Marcus Aurelius once said, "You have power over your own mind - not outside events. Realize this and you will find strength.
This is the words I've been pondering all day today. And I'll say this, it's gotten me to forget about that damn job for a little while.
More to come.
I love you Mom.